You know what hurts, when your boyfriend tells you he can’t talk to you because he feels like being shushed and your conversations don’t go any where. My boyfriend just said this to me… I feel hurt when he agreed that we shouldn’t talk. I don’t think this is going to work out, should I end it?
I think I keep this going because I see something in him that isn’t there. I hoped that our relationship would progress that he’d let me in or like me more… maybe I’m not pretty enough or I’m annoying. I’m sorry these are my traits I could try to mask these things but I will always be a fat girl and I will always cry inside if I’m unable to say and do what’s me. I feel that he wants me to change but I can’t. I don’t want to. I am happy the way I am, I don’t try to change him I just wish he’d see me as a person with feelings and I’m not so sure I’m going to succeed in this.
If we’re gong to continue to make each other feel terrible it just isn’t going to work. I need to stop clinging to the hope that isn’t there and just give up on this, what ever it is and let go and move on. If I’m holding him back then I’m sorry for being in his way and making things slow down for him. I can’t believe I let myself do this to me again. Why, if he feels so bad, is he still with me why do we do this to each other? I think for him it isn’t feelings that he has it’s the need to have something even if it does nothing, the exact definition of our relationship, nothing. We don’t see each other often, we don’t fight but we don’t really get along, he doesn’t want to talk to me any more, and I think the conclusion is we need to end this. I’m really sorry and it hurts to even think of this but I don’t think I want to do this to him or to me anymore if we just go on with nothing. Unless he wants something out of this like I do I don’t think this will work. I hurt so much in side, just so much, I don’t want to leave him because I want him so much but, if he doesn’t want me that I can’t help that can I. my only question is, What will I do should I just give up now or keep trying?
