Time to change

I have realized that I have lost myself.  No doubt I can lose myself again, but I'm going to put up much more of a fight next time.
Now it is time for me to rediscover myself and lay claim to my aspirations. I need to ask myself serious and simple questions.
"What do you like?"
"Who do you want to be?"
"What is in your way?"
"Why are you letting things stop you?"
"Why are you not achieving these things?"
"Why not start now?"
There is no time like the present. Started to get out more. I walk most days. I don't have a job yet because I'm terrified.
I don't want to be afraid and I'm really working on abolishing my fears. I'm not trying to say that I'm not ever going to be afraid again, I am just saying some of these fears are seriously unnecessary.
I am the only thing holding me back. I don't need anyone to hold my had though I feel as though I do, also something I'm working on.
What happened to going to Japan and being a teacher?  What happened to learning sign language?  When did my life become nothing. I feel meaningless most days.
I'm going to lose weight. I am then getting a job. I will save up to go to Japan after going to college and acquiring the ability to teach.
This is my plan. Simple and hard, but it is my own. I will do this alone.