Alright Alright

   I'm not going to smoke, I bought a thing of sunflower seeds and I'm good, just so that's clear.  I'm reading and looking at college things every day of my life, a healthy little obsession I'd say, I'm very serious about going to college and very scared.  I question myself way to much when it comes to things I would like to do I'm glad that I mustered up my courage and did this, though I fear I'm going to mess up big time.
   I need a hug Helens going to do one better though she's going to get me drunk tonight. Wish me luck.